Jagran’s plunge into sannyas and Mystic Rose
At age 29 I experienced the climax of an ongoing depression and was ready to end my days. Until then I had been searching for the recognition of my family, a prestigious job, becoming somebody important, the respect of everybody… as do a large number of people nowadays. This led me to numerous failures and became the source of immense frustration. I felt that all this life until now was a waste, that I was only compromising my own truth, and questioned the meaning of life.
A physiotherapist suggested I find a book in an esoteric bookstore and when I walked into one I found a shelf full of Osho’s books, all with a picture of him shining in the middle. I froze, caught up in this image, and stood there for several minutes. I ended up buying one of them, read it – and it was a revelation. From then I read Osho’s books for four months, from morning to night. It seemed Osho was talking directly to me and knew the roots of all my frustrations. Osho gave me a new vision of my life.
After reading thirty books, I started to put into practice what he was saying. I found the CD of the Nataraj Meditation and did that every morning. I was scared at the beginning because while I was dancing with closed eyes, I felt the presence of somebody – although I knew for sure that I was alone in the house! At a certain point I decided to trust whatever came along, and if somebody was there, he was welcome! With this trust, something started opening in my being. I understood that Osho was with me and would stay with me forever, in my heart, helping me to stand alone in life. A love story between my master Osho and I began.
For one year I practiced Nataraj every day and felt that Osho was guiding me in my life. Every time I had a question, doubt, fear, or was feeling depressed, I always found the answer by just opening an Osho book. What I read was exactly about what I was going through, like magic, and this is still happening to this day.
At that time I did not know any sannyasins. I had never heard of Osho’s work nor about any experiences one might have during meditation. Completely ignorant, I took sannyas based on my connection to him through the meditations and his books.
Then I left for Poona to visit the ashram. Little miracles kept happening… like the fact that I completely forgot to smoke as soon as I arrived – while back home I smoked a packet a day! I was going with the flow, trusting. By chance I booked Mystic Rose – there was a rose pictured on the flyer and my family name is De Rose…. This process gave me so much – Mystic Rose was a revelation, a breakthrough. I experienced a cosmic orgasm for three days – laughing and crying at the same time. I became devoted to the process and participated again and again. I followed different trainings: with Leela in the Himalayas, she who had received the process from Osho 25 years ago, and then the trainings in Poona where I was an assisting facilitator for eight years.
I kept receiving so much from this process that I wanted to share it. When I organised a workshop in Corfu last year, not enough people booked yet I decided to do it anyway, even if alone. I spent three weeks on Mount Rosa in Italy at the height of 2000 m, in a tent, eating once every three days while doing the Mystic Rose. This year I did it five times, almost in a row.
To integrate all these experiences, I went to Thailand to be in silence. I rented a little house in the jungle far from the chaos of the city and it was there that I met my beloved Anne-Laure while I was doing the Dynamic Meditation on the beach…
For ten years I have been searching and experimenting in going deeper and deeper into myself and each time while doing the Mystic Rose I discover more and more secrets which lie in this process. To me, the Mystic Rose is the essence of Osho’s work and the most fundamental experience that he has created.
Following my heart, I moved to France to be with Anne-Laure and created the association ‘Art of Being’ offering weekly meditations, monthly workshops and the meditative therapies Mystic Rose and No Mind. I am very grateful to Anne–Laure and Khirad from Méditation France for their unconditional support.
Jagran will be facilitating the Osho Mystic Rose in Vichy, France 3-24 August and 5-26 November 2013 at Osho Leela, Czech Republic. art-of-being.com