Suvarna’s ‘I Want Real’

i want real, i want raw, i want potent
i want here, i want body, i want present
had enough of my complacency, pretending just to be polite
now i’m seeing the real me, and I’m ecstatic, i’m a being made of light

i want sweet, i want sour, i want to taste everything
i want alive, i want tingling, i want so much feeling
been afraid to feel too much, to be too much, been afraid to stand out from the crowd
so much joy and sadness locked up inside, now i’m singing it, singing it out loud

i want warm, i want heart, i want loving
i want breath, i want touch, i want a heart that’s beating
been avoiding intimacy, don’t know why i kept myself apart
didn’t want you to see me, now i’m offering, offering my heart

i want sincere, i want open, i want passionate
i want deep, i want intense, i want authentic
i want untidy, i want unique, i want eccentric
i want warm, i want heart, i want loving
i want breath, i want touch, i want a heart that’s beating

Suvarna is a vocalist and composer who plays electric violin and keyboards. She has released three albums of her own compositions in a worldbeat style, with melodies based on Indian ragas. Since 2004 she has been composing in a singer-songwriter style and performing solo with keyboards. The lyrics express her experiences of being on the path of meditation for the last thirty years. Suvarna is an Engineering Doctorate candidate, doing research into new ways to reduce energy consumption. www.infinitymusic.org – www.bristol.ac.uk

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