There is something more… What is it?

Film by David Fuller, journalist, reporter, documentary filmmaker and writer – vimeo.com/fullydavid – davidfuller.tv

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If I use myself as an example, I feel like… when I am locked into my personality which is a result of my conditioning, it’s like I am looking at the world through a lot of filters, and sets of beliefs, and through an identity of who I take myself to be. And intrinsic in that is a certain sense of being separate, a certain feeling of ‘it’s not quite it’ or ‘I am missing the depth of contact that I felt in other moments when I felt wide open, where I felt in connection with nature or with another person, or in a moment of awe and wonder by some natural beauty, or touched by art or love’.

There are many doorways that I call into being where I experience that sense of oneness. And in my normal day-to-day personality which is fine, you know… It is basically an intelligent strategy to survive in the environment that I grew up in. And it works. But, in it, I often experience a certain sense of separation and isolation.

And in me, because of these moments that I’ve been blessed in my life where I felt deeply connected, there’s a longing and a yearning to live in that space. And for me, I feel like I’ve had the good fortune – and the intelligence – to follow that longing and to see where it, and to make it a high priority in my life. And it has led me into contact with beautiful people, and with communities of people with certain shared ideals of wanting to realize their deepest potential. And it had become kind of central to the work that I do where I try and inspire people to get in touch with that inner longing or urge and let it guide them.

And I really trust – this is like one of the most precious things we have inside – that longing will take you where you need to go. So, if I am longing for freedom – which I am – it doesn’t take me necessarily to freedom. It takes me in the direction of freedom but it takes me to those places inside of myself where I’ve cut myself off from freedom where I put up a barrier.

So the longing is very precise if you really feel it. It takes you where you need to go, and where you need to go is where you shut down. And the good news about that is it’s very possible to work through those places, to feel through those places, to bring understanding, to bring compassion, to bring awareness to those places and become free of them, and move one. Otherwise, you know, we just stay stuck in our personalities. We are just basically going round and round and round and round.

For a lot of people, I guess, that’s good enough. For me it never really was. I always had this feeling of ‘there’s something more’. What is it? We are here for such a short amount of time. I guess, one way to say it is, ‘I want it all’.

After completing his BA (honors) in Economics at UC Berkeley Rafia recognized a personal need to move away from social and political action and focus on inner exploration. In 1978 he met Osho and spent many years in his presence. Since 1977 he has been conducting workshops and trainings in countries around the world. Rafia is a co-creator of the ‘Path of Love’ process. workingwithpeopletrainings.com