Part 2 of Avikal’s notes, Reporting from the Great Doubt
Submission is a tough cookie.
Today it’s hard to swallow all that is happening inside and outside in the wide wide world and not to react, not to blame, and not to look for solutions.
The dragon’s head, “What shall I do?” keeps rising and pulling me into the delusion of having a separate will. And to pressure me that I know better than Life, and that I have to correct all the stuff which is “wrong”!
The line between a spontaneous and healthy rejection of what is inhuman, unfair, disgusting, and the desire to fight and correct, while standing in a principled righteousness that keeps separating good and bad, right and wrong, gets more and more foggy and shaky.
Who am I to decide what is right? Do I know about how the cosmic Will operates in creating a balance? What am I resisting? What the fuck do the Masters mean when they say, “There is nothing you can do?” And yet, as I know through my own direct experience that there is no separate I, of course “there is nothing I can do.”
And yet… I still want to fight.
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