“Before you go to sleep in the night, just lie down, turn the lights off, lie down under your blanket, and feel your body is dying…. Start feeling that great light is entering from the head, golden light – as if suddenly a sun has risen and it is pouring all its gold into you,” suggests Osho to a visitor in darshan.
A sannyasin says: I’ve been feeling, especially for the last week, that I’ve had tastes and experiences of bliss, ecstasy and the divine. In the last week I’ve been experiencing a lot of pain as I experience all my blocks and how asleep I am and how much my mind distracts. It’s very uncomfortable.
I can feel everything. Mm mm…. It is something very meaningful – even this pain. It happens only when your energy starts moving into new spaces where it has never moved before. It is the beginning of something tremendously important, but because it is new the body will have to go through a few pains, because new paths have to be created for the energy.
And you need not be worried: the energy will create the paths itself because you have enough energy. The problem is when the energy is not enough and the path has to be created. When the river has enough water, no need to worry; the very amount of water creates its way. And so is the case with energy: you have more than you need, so it is going to break all those blocks in you. They are not to be removed, there is no need to remove them. They have to be removed when the energy is not enough to remove them; then outer processes have to be used.
For example, Rolfing can be helpful but only when the energy is not enough. Postural Integration is helpful but only when the energy is not enough. But when the energy is like a flood, no Rolfing, no Postural Integration is needed. The energy will come and take all the rocks away; it will make its own path. And you are fortunate to have more than you need. But it is clashing with the rocks so there will be pain, but accept this pain as a growth pain.
Don’t think of it as a disease. Feel joyous about it, that your energy is moving and creating new paths. And with those new paths you will start finding new places of being. These days that you have been here have been really significant. Something of immense value has started moving. Just do two things….
One is: continue to meditate every day – one meditation. But choose one and then insist on the same; don’t change it. You can choose any one that you like, but let it be something very active – Dynamic, Kundalini, Nataraj – anything dynamic that will help the energy to move faster.
And the second thing that you have to do is: before you go to sleep in the night, just lie down, turn the lights off, lie down under your blanket, and feel your body is dying. Start from the toes and feel that they are dying and move slowly upwards: the legs are dying, the thighs are dying; go on moving upwards and let the whole body die. It will take at least five to seven minutes; slowly slowly you come to the head and all is dead. When you feel that all is dead, finished, that the body is a corpse, then do a small meditation which will be of immense help.
Start feeling that great light is entering from the head, golden light – as if suddenly a sun has risen and it is pouring all its gold into you. It is going in, going in, going in… the whole body has become a hollow bamboo and the light is falling in and passing through like a flood, and it goes out from the toes. For five minutes let this happen, then after five minutes – just approximately, you need not look at the watch, just approximately – after five minutes change the whole process. Now start thinking of a dark energy, negative – like a dark night with not a single star in it, a dark energy flow entering from the toes, moving upwards, filling the whole bamboo, the hollow body, and going out from the head. Five minutes of that, and then go to sleep.
This will synchronize the positive and negative energy inside your body. It will synchronize your man and woman inside the body, your yin and yang, your day and night, your life and death. First life, the golden light, then death, the darkness… and enjoy both, because both are beautiful. This for five and the first part for five minutes, and seven minutes first to have the body absolutely dead so it creates no hindrance.
This passing of the golden light and the darkness will help tremendously. Every day you will feel those blocks are disappearing for no other work is needed on them. And one meditation every day.
Osho, Hallelujah! Ch 27
Hear Osho explain this meditation in a discourse:
The Secret of the Golden Flower / Golden Light Meditation