Sarita emerges as a singer-songwriter.
I was raised in a family where creativity was encouraged. My mother oohed and aghed over each painting I made, proudly displaying these on the wall. If I wrote stories or poems, those would also be praised to high heaven. However, there was a shadow in my family in regards to music and singing. My feeble attempts to play the violin were nipped in the bud by various members of the family screaming, “Hey, how much longer will you be torturing us with that horrible screeching sound?”
My mother used to say: “Our family is not musical.” Or, “I am tone deaf.” Or, “Our family has no talent for singing.” I actually loved singing and used to sing at the top of my lungs when I was alone in nature and sure no one was listening. One time, in school, I got very excited because there was a ‘singing abilities’ test. All the children were asked to line up, come forward one by one and sing to the woman who was there playing the piano for us. I was desperate to be accepted into the choir which was being formed, believing that perhaps I would be able to ‘learn how to sing’.
As my turn came, the woman on the piano played a note and waited. I didn’t understand what she was waiting for and just gaped at her. She barked at me, “Make the sound of the note I just played!” I opened my mouth, and was so nervous with anticipation, that only a tiny squeak came out! She cried out in disgust, “Next!” and gestured for me to move on. This was the beginning and end of my singing career!
Forty years later, I had a dream which changed my life. A being of light appeared in my dream and announced: “It is a great misfortune if you do not develop your singing ability. You have a special voice, which needs to be heard. Open your singing gift.”
I woke up and immediately wrote 14 songs. It was as if a dam had burst and all the repressed musical creativity of my entire life had gushed out. As I was writing the songs, I heard the music which should accompany them. However, I had no way to write the melodies down since I didn’t know how to read or write musical notes. I thought to myself, “These songs are powerful and one day I will do something with them,” and put them in a drawer. Sometimes I would take them out and read them and, occasionally, more songs poured through me which I would then add to the drawer.
Last year, my singer friend Amiya, who had listened to some of my song-poems while visiting me in my home, asked me if I could write some songs for her upcoming album. I told her I had no idea if it would work to write songs on demand, but I was willing to give it a try. She gave me a list of subjects and I went for it. Mysteriously, even though I have no musical training, I was able to immediately write the songs simply by asking spirit to deliver the songs through me. Subsequently, I wrote about 20 songs for her which she then put to music for the wonderful Amiya Inspiration Goddess Project. This project involves the production of an album and also a series of live shows, which promise to be real extravaganzas with live music and singing, extraordinary dancers, exquisite scents created especially for the show by an aromatherapy expert, and magnificent costumes to delight the eyes. All of this to celebrate and awaken the Goddess in all women.
Amiya and I got very excited by our collaboration. As it is so unexpected it feels quite miraculous. Subsequently, she gave me singing lessons so that I could melt away that conditioned belief about not being able to sing. The way she teaches is extraordinarily uplifting. Under her guidance I am now able to compose songs on the spot. While singing I experience a full body orgasm. It is one of the most ecstatic experiences I have ever had: to just let rip and soar like a bird into the center of sound.
You can listen to my song The Guru on Osho News.
Ananda Sarita met Osho in Mumbai in 1973 and shortly afterwards received sannyas. She spent the next 26 years in his communes where she worked cleaning Osho’s house, as a medium in energy darshan, in the PR department and as a holistic healer. Osho gave her the title ‘Mahasatvaa’ meaning ‘keeper of esoteric wisdom’. Since 1997 she has been teaching Tantra, holistic healing and meditation across the world. She lives in England and Greece. tantra-essence.com – ananda-sarita.com
Concerts by Amiya
2 March 2016, Salme Culture Hall, Salme tn. 12, Tallinn, 10413 – www.salme.ee
5 March 2016, Koncertzāle Rīga, Zinātņu akadēmijas lauk. 1, Rīga – facebook.com/Koncertz
9 March 2016, Compensa Concert Hall, Kernavės g. 84 , Vilnius