From Avikal’s series, Reporting from the Great Doubt, Part 15
When the clouds of doubt, reactivity, fear and hope fall apart, what I see, what I feel, what I am, is: Love. Fierce Love. That’s my nature, that’s what Osho opened me up to, made me capable of living, as I learnt to surrender to the suchness, the isness of now.
I have known spontaneously and intimately the fierceness of love in myself since I was very young. However, I was uncertain, shy, divided – until I was, for a few moments or a few hours, completely possessed by love. No mind, no thoughts, no desires, no time, no other, no choice, only the absolute devotion of fierce love.
Much of the anger, rage, and compulsion to fight which ran through my life, was nothing else than the burning flames of pain. Pain of feeling disconnected, uncertain that I was that fierceness of love. Love all the time, totally, unconditionally, uncompromisingly.
I have seen the fire of fierce love in the eyes of my Master. I have heard it in his words and even more so in the silence between his words. I felt it as he touched my heart and helped me lift the veils and pretensions of being ignorant, small, a beggar.
Wherever Love and Freedom meet, I am there.
Wherever Truth and Beauty meet, I am there.
Wherever I am undivided, the I disappears, Love is.
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